
Wednesday also garnered a pledge from Alice that she will join me for nanowrimo. I cannot talk for how seriously she will take it but now I have someone to work alongside, it certainly adds some legitimacy to my attempts. My novel will be called TREES.
Today was not a case of what I heard for the first time but what I achieved: 21 minutes of meditation. I walked along the canal until I found a spot that seemed serene and prepared myself. (Firstly, I filled in my first job application in months! Small steps...) An hour was attempted but many things got in the way. Firstly, it was not actually a good place to hibernate, something kept driving and beeping loudly behind the trees, and enough people to distract walked or ran or cycled past. I tried it though! Obviously no enlightenment happened; I couldn't even stop my brain thinking about a girl I like or my potential novel or my diet or how to get a job or my sister or the leaves falling from the trees and at 21 minutes I stopped. Then I read a little bit more of Nabakov's Lolita, a novel I am eternally struggling to finish, even if I love how it is written. I will attempt meditation again tomorrow. It may no longer be new, but it is something I want to do.

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